”Such answers illuminate that the addiction is neither a choice nor a disease, but originates in a human being’s desperate attempt to solve a problem: the problem of emotional pain, of overwhelming stress, of lost connection, of loss of control, of a deep discomfort with the self. In short, it is a forlorn attempt to solve the problem of human pain. Hence my mantra: “The question is not why the addiction, but why the pain.”
Based on my experience, all MY addictive states were linked to a temporary inability to ”stand alone in silence”. The unpleasant experience of being my own self was the unacknowledged pain behind most of my decisions for quite a long time. Fantasies of ”blissful future”, depressive states, obsessions over physical achievements, attaching to relationships, crippling anxiety and disrupted sleep patterns were and still are a great challenge for me. It seems to me that there is an inverted relationship between addictions and freedom.
I’ve found that none of those things have the conditions to occur when I am in the state of enjoying my own being – in the sense of experiencing a satisfaction from my physical freedom, mental clarity and inner emptiness. This is the state that I’m most capable of loving, giving and contributing with what I have to the people around me.
It comes naturally when the physical movement is enough – both quality/quantity wise.
Learn from the movements
Do not learn movements.