Me, being awkward and robotic, learning this beautiful new choreography by @polefiction . And furthermore, forgetting the choreo.
A few days ago, I saw a quote, might have been a meme, about wanting to be good at something the first time you try it. That’s actually what’s prompting me to post this. Wanting to be good / perfect at first try. I know that feeling too well, the performance anxiety, the belief that if I don’t perform, if I’m not good I won’t be loved, I have no value. Too often that inner dialogue paralyzed me, kept me back from trying, enjoying and ultimately be good at the thing.
I’m still battling with these feelings, and when in other places my life is uncertain, they come back running, but I know better. I know it but it is not fully integrated so I struggle. And I am posting this one because. It’s ok to not be perfect. Doing my best in the moment is enough. I am enough. And I really enjoy #edgework even though and probably because it takes me out of my comfort zone, it requires such precision and challenges me. My brain is on fire. Creating new pathways, new awareness of my ankles and my whole self, more strength and control, figuring movements, timing and yes also dealing with the inner critic and trying to no let it dimmed the joy of #dancing and learning and feeling goofy and oh not so good. And the confidence I’ll get better and that I am not letting fear win. I’m working with and through it.
Much as gracias Teresa for your teaching and class. Having so much appreciation of how easy you make it look 🫶😘
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